Thursday, January 28, 2016

Eyes, Hair, and a Weight Gain

I'm not typically one to talk about my appearance, but I've been doing a lot better when it comes to my confidence, so I wanted to take the time to document this new found confidence that I've developed, while also giving a bit of an update about how my hair growing process is going. 

Not to brag, but I think that my eyes are my best feature. When it comes to the things about myself that I'm self conscious about, my eyes aren't one of those things. My eyes are a sort of dark gray/green color, and I have some of the longest lashes ever! Okay... I may be bragging a little bit. When I was home over Holiday Break, I went to get my eyes checked to see if I'd need a different prescription of contacts for this year. When I was there, I found out that my eyes stayed the same prescription and most likely were going to stay the same for the rest of my adult life! How exciting is that?? My glasses are going to continue to work for me when I want to give my eyes a break from my contacts because my vision isn't going to get any worse! My doctor said that I could look into Lasik Eye Surgery if I wanted to, but I don't think that I can because I have an astigmatism on the inside of my eyes. Oh well, I'm perfectly confident wearing my contacts and glasses! I do prefer contacts, because they help me show off my beat feature!

Now, on to my hair! I've been growing it out from my Pixie Cut for the past several months, and to me is seems loads longer than it used to be! Even though I think that it looks nice, I think that it's the "Justin Bieber Haircut" from 2010. I try to refrain from doing the hair flip. However, even though it looks very Justin Bieber-esque I won't let myself cut it. At the moment, I've been longing to be able to french braid my hair! I think that's the length that I'll grow it out to and keep it out for a while. The only downside is that I can't french braid my own hair... Sad, I know! but my hair is really fine, which makes it hard to hold onto, especially when I'm trying to do it myself. I've been trying to thicken my hair by doing all sorts of DIY remedies that I found on Pinterest. So far, none of them seem to be making any sort of a difference.

About the weight gain... Surprisingly enough, it hasn't bothered me. I didn't know that I had gain any weight until I went to put on an old dress that's more form fitting and it didn't fit. All of my other clothes fit just like they always have! I haven't gained 15 pounds, I walk around too much and do yoga too often to have gained that much, but I did gain about 6 or 7 pounds, which I can mainly see in my hips. However, I'm a naturally curvy person, and I've recently come to terms with the fact that I'll most likely never have a thigh gap, so I'm perfectly happy with my super curvy, kind of chunky appearance even though I originally never wanted to gain any wait at school.

All in all, I'm really happy about my vision, the appearance of my eyes, how quickly my hair is growing, and how my body looks despite the weight gain. Being this happy about myself is really weird to me, because it was such a huge issue for me for the longest time! This just goes to show that anything is possible. I never thought that I would be happy about my appearance until I lost a majority of my weight and had the perfect hair that always looked awesome.

What about yourself are you the most confident? What do you think your best feature is? Let me know!

Tuesday, January 26, 2016

Taking a Shot in the Dark - Update

So, after looking at all of my different housing options and the estimated amount of money that I'll be able to save up before next year, there doesn't appear to be any way for me to be able to do an Internship as well. Working 2 jobs (hopefully) this semester, and then working all through the summer I'll be able to mostly afford my room and board as well as my textbooks, which is my goal.

Some of my friends offered to let me room with them in their 4 bedroom suite on campus, but the cost to live there, even only my portion, is way too high for me to afford. The building its self is also in a less than ideal location..

This means that I'm going to try for my same dorm next year, a single room, and I'm going to work my butt off this semester and over the summer to be able to afford to live there and to be able to purchase all of my textbooks.

Thursday, January 21, 2016

Tuesday, January 19, 2016

School Update

So far, this semester of school isn't going how I planned. I mentioned my textbook fiasco already, but so far that's not all that's happened so far! I thought that I would take the time to talk about what's gone on! Who knows, maybe I'll want to look back on this when I take a trip down memory lane.

My first day of the semester, I started off with my Chemistry class. I've never taken chemistry before in my life, and everyone I talked to told me that it's the worst department at the school so the classes are the hardest to pass. I went into the room that everyone calls "The Pit" (scary right?) and I tried to get a seat near the front of the room. The Pit is so far underground that there's no cell service in the room, which freaked quite a few people out! However, I'd imagine that our professor loves it because it ensures that everyone has to actually pay attention when they come to class. My professor started off the semester by saying "Sorry, I have to figure out how to raise the screen before we start class. I found out last semester that I could set it on fire." ....!!!! If I wasn't nervous already, that definitely made me nervous! (Yes, he did use lots of fire, including lighting a huge pole on fire and waving it in the air a balloons full of different things).

Next up, it's my English class... Which is a Shakespeare class! This is my favorite class ever, and my break during the day. The first day, I mistook my professor for a homeless person because of his appearance, which is a good sign when you want the class to be awesome. So far, he's also my favorite professor. He's so passionate about Shakespeare, which makes me feel really excited to learn what he has to say because I know that what he says is good stuff!

Then I have math... *Scary/Dramatic Music* I'm not at all a fan of math. I'm absolutely awful at it, it doesn't make any sense to me. This semester, I worked out my schedule so that I have one of the better math teachers, and I've sought lots of help from the math center on campus where free tutors will help me with my homework. I'm hoping that, even though this class is going to be really hard for me, I'll be able to understand it just enough to be able to pass.

I'm also taking a class that's all about learning about personal and real life skills. A lot of the things that we're going to do in the class I already know how to do, like writing professional emails and what kind of personalities I work best with (I did it at a leadership conference), so I'm not at all worried about passing it! However, we have to do some speaking in front of the class, which freaks me out! However, I know that it's something that freaks out basically everyone in my class, so I'm not alone in being anxious about it. My professor uses these tiny little cymbals when he wants us to stop talking, or when he wants us to stop whatever else we could be doing. It's a quiet little ding, but it definitely does it's job well!

To be honest, I've basically just been binge watching Chasing Life on Netflix and looking at funny videos on YouTube... I haven't had enough homework to take up more than a few hours of my time, so I've had plenty of time to waste watching things. Never before has the need to watch a whole season in a day been so strong! Hopefully I'll finish watching Chasing Life before I get some actual homework because I definitely know that I'll convince myself that I can only watch an episode before working on homework. Wish me luck...

Thursday, January 14, 2016

Book One: "Girl Online: On Tour" by Zoe Sugg

I honestly read this book in only 2 days! I couldn't put it down! It was a great way to start off my resoluton of reading 20 books before the end of this year.

There's no good way to capture all the romance (not just from the main characters), suspense, betrayal, excitement, anticipation, and happiness in writing without copying down the whole book! If you loved the first book, Girl Online, you'll love this equal even more. There's nothing I can emphasize more: It's a MUST read!! Get it off the shelf and in your hands as soon as you can, you definitely won't regret it.

Thursday, January 7, 2016

Giving Your Time

I'm sure all of you have heard of the new Star Wars movie that was recently released. I personally am not a huge Star Wars fan, it's just not my cup of tea, but for Christmas I got a movie theater gift card for my Dad so that we could go and see the movie together and have some movie snacks as well. After getting the gift card on Christmas Day, my dad was really excited for us to go together and see it, and he looked at all of the different show times to pick the perfect one where we'd be able to get the best seat.

When the day came, we both excitedly got in the car, talking about what we had heard about the quality of the movie, and then waited in line to get our tickets. After waiting in line for the snacks, and getting freshly popped popcorn with extra butter on it, we went into the theater to find some seats. We got the seats right in the middle of the row that was at the ultimate viewing angle! It was absolutely perfect! We sat took our coats off, sat down, and started talking more excitedly while eating popcorn.

Unfortunately, we ate about half of the popcorn before the movie even started. To make things worse, part way through the movie I got really motion sick and had to leave the theater to breathe and feel better. I was gone for about 10 minutes when I started to feel bad about having gotten motion sick and needing to leave my Dad in the theater. I talked to my mom and my boyfriend who both told me that it didn't matter that it was hard for me to watch the movie, it mattered that I was willing to and that I was willing to see a movie I wasn't as interested in because my Dad wanted to see it.

"Go back in and just keep your eyes closed. You're together, that's the important part."

I've found that, in many situations, being willing to give your time to someone to really have a conversation, or to do something that they enjoy, or to help them in some way is the best way to show them how much they mean to you. There's lots of different ways to give your time, including going to see a movie like I did with my Dad. You could take the time to call them or video call so that they can see you. You could bring flowers, or help someone pull weeds in their garden. You could write a heartfelt letter or card. You could simply sit with them and let them talk to you! It's easy, and it's oh so very worth it.

Tuesday, January 5, 2016

New Year's Resolutions for 2016

I've been trying to think of some good resolutions for this year since last year (which is why this is going up so far after the new year has already started). Over the past several weeks, I've been looking at what I need/would like to accomplish, and these are the things that I've come up with!

Resolution 1: Save up the money that I need to be able to pay for my Housing and Textbooks for the 16-17 school year on my own.

Resolution 2: DRINK MORE WATER!!

Resolution 3: Read at least 20 books by the end of the year

Resolution 4: Clean my Dorm Room every Saturday

Resolution 5: Stop eating after 9pm

Resolution 6: Snack less, eat actual meals more

Friday, January 1, 2016

2015 New Year's Resolutions - Final Update

This past year has been full of amazing new things and adventures that I didn't originally have in mind! I have a semester of College under my belt and I've learned a lot about who I am as a person because of it. Looking at the resolutions I set for myself at the end of 2014 for 2015, I've accomplished several of the things that I wanted and there were a few things that I wish I would have accomplished. However, I'm still proud of my new achievements and the things I learned from them!

My Original Resolutions:

Resolution 1: Write about everything - including the stories that pop up in my head, fictional or not

Resolution 2: Rediscover what it's like to record memories in photos

Resolution 3: Develop my confidence so that I'm not afraid to say no or to share my ideas with the world because I deserve to be confident. (This one ties in with the whole "not caring what anyone thinks" and "appreciating every square inch of my body")

Resolution 4: To beat every level and complete every requirement in Super Mario 3D Land on Nintendo 3DS.

How I Did (or Didn't) Accomplish Them:

Resolution 1: This is one of the resolutions that I don't think I worked on as fully as I had wanted this past year. I got new notebooks and pens and stuffed them in all of my bags and my backpack! However, whenever I thought of something to write down I would talk myself out of it because most of them weren't complete stories or they only made sense in a certain context that I didn't feel like explaining/writing down. However, I did love having all the notebooks and pens everywhere because even though I wasn't writing down as much stuff as I wanted, I felt like I was because I had all the supplies everywhere for it!

Resolution 2: I've absolutely loved this resolution, because I've taken thousands of photos over this past year, many of which I've posted onto this blog. There were even times where I didn't have my camera with me where I wished I'd had it! I found myself seeing everything from the perspective of photos, and thinking about the angles that I would take the photos from if I did have my camera. There were a few times where I told myself I'd come back with my camera, but I rarely actually did that...

Resolution 3: Ehh... I mostly did this one. Unfortunately, the "not afraid to say no" part rarely happened. However, I did really well at speaking up in my classes when I had something to say, and I was more willing to speak up in conversations about the topic at hand. My confidence skyrocketed this past year! I left my dorm in a sweatshirt with no makeup on and I felt just as comfortable as I would have in more fancy clothes with a full face of makeup. Before this year, that never would have happened!

Resolution 4: Umm... Yeah... This one was the most far fetched of my resolutions. I worked at beating all the levels and getting all of the stars, but it took me several hundred tries to get all of the stars. The "Game Over" screen because my new best friend, because I was seeing it so often when I ran out of time or accidentally jumped off the edge of the bridge I was trying to cross or something. After a few days of trying to finish a level every day, I would simply get frustrated and grumpy, which wasn't a positive experience for me or anyone that I had to talk to.

All in all, this year was absolutely awesome! It was one of the most positive years that I've had in a long time, and I'm hoping that things will simply go up from here. I'm ready, 2016, bring it on!

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