Thursday, December 28, 2017

My 2017


January
I was living in my first campus owned apartment with a horrible roommate that I really really didn't like or get along with. In this month I learned the value of cleaning up my messy apartment even though I was cleaning it all by myself, and my next door neighbor in my apartment complex got a puppy! At the beginning of this year, I got to put Jimmy and Shellbert with Sebastian who was my beta fish at the time, and I was really happy/excited about increasing my little aquatic family at school. I started my second semester of classes for my Sophomore Year in College, and I was doing a great job keeping up with the work load from both work and school. The only downside were the gray skies and snow that were discouraging to me, but other than that, it was all in all a happy month for me, starting off the beginning of the year on a positive note.

February
February was a productive month more than anything else. I had exams, I started exercising more, and I bought and installed the beautiful template that is currently what I'm using for my blog. I was going through what I referred to as my "Mid-College Crisis" where I wanted to find some adventure to do to have some amazing memories from college. The highlight of my February was, surprisingly, Valentine's Day because I took it as a self care day where I really treated myself and watched a lot of my favorite movies.

March
I got pink eye. I got pink eye three separate times. On the plus side, I ended up using the entire bottle of eye drops that I had been given to treat pink eye. The best part of the month was getting my hair redyed with my mom when she came to visit for Spring Break. We did a day trip up to the nearest big city, and had a fun girls day out!

April
April was really crunch time for me when it came to my classes. I pushed every last bit of energy and focus into my classes. I didn't sleep very much, I chugged a lot of energy drinks, and I spent a lot of time wanting to throw my computer at a wall. The apartment I was living in had a wifi change that really through me through a loop on top of everything that was going on, and one of my guinea pigs back home had to go see our vet because he was in the early stages of a respiratory infection. My job really picked up because of so many of my coworkers calling in sick or being unwilling to cover shifts. I also had a lot of trouble with my horrible roommate in April. The only real bright spot in the month was the new Beauty and the Beast film, which I went and saw multiple times in the theater.

May
May was a really productive month for me, going through my final exams and starting working full time at my job for the summer. While working, I learned a new driving skill - backing into parking spaces. Which I was really proud of myself for learning. The highlight of the month was my awful roommate finally moving out and having the entire apartment to myself for the rest of May and for June! My favorite thing that I was able to do in the month of May was driving down to my hometown to surprise my family and to see my little brother graduate from high school.

June and July
These months were really packed for me. In June I started the transition to working in the front office at my job, my parents let me know that I would need to find a place to stay for July to get residency in the state I'm going to school in, and that I would have to re-home my guinea pigs while living in a different state. I decided to smuggle my guinea pigs to college. I moved from my previous apartment to a place I would live in for the month of July only, and then as soon as I had all of my things moved, I had to drive back to my hometown for Jury Duty where I ended up only packing up my childhood room because my parents were selling their house. I also met with my optometrist and found out that I was having an allergic reaction to my contact solution. Within these months I also met with the surgeon from my gall bladder removal and underwent a Scope to work out what was going on with my innards.

August
August was one with the most stability for me. I got moved into my new apartment with my new roommate, I was beginning a new relationship, and I had my two guinea pigs in tow. This was also the month that I was granted Residency for the state I'm going to school in, and started the first semester of my junior year feel more positive.

September
This month I first started taking care of a set of rabbits that were being used for a grad student's behavioral study, which I was really excited to be a part of! Exams, exams, and more exams coming up in the next few months. September brought a month's worth of working football games and living on energy drinks and leftovers to get by, which was exhausting. The highlight of the month was getting my guinea pigs officially approved to stay with my in my campus owned apartment, in addition to ordering quite a few books that I wanted to read. Fall is my favorite season, so with it starting in September I was pretty happy with the weather even though I was working so hard to get through everything.

October
There were quite a few changes that came about in my life in October. My work load increased because a lot of people quit so it was down to me and one other coworker to cover every shift that we could between classes, which were equally as demanding of my time. I realized that I wouldn't be able to take the internships being offered to students at my school because I wouldn't be able to travel away from my guinea pigs for very long periods of time. However, I was still helping with the behavioral study involving Rabbits which has been really enjoyable to me. I also had to come to terms with the fact that I'm double majoring and will take longer to get through school than others. The best part of my October were all of the new Netflix shows/movies that I was able to watch.

November
November was packed full of exams for me leading up to the week long break where I celebrated the Thanksgiving Holiday and my 21st Birthday. I didn't really get any posts up in the month of November, but I had so much going on that this blog got put on the back burner. Throughout the month, I was basically only going between work and school, so there wasn't a whole lot going on outside of that to talk about.

December
I'll have my December 2017 overview going up at the beginning of January, so be sure to watch for it!

Tuesday, December 26, 2017

2018 New Year's Resolutions


I have mixed feelings about New Year's Resolutions... I did them my first year on this blog, and I didn't the second year, but for some reason I've decided to do them again! I'm not going to update as frequently about them like i did my first year, but I will update about them when there are things to update about, so hopefully it'll turn out the way I'm planning when it comes to the posts going up on this blog.


  1. Actually post on this blog every Tuesday and Thursday the entire year of 2018 without missing any, building up my consistency and helping me keep up with something that I really enjoy.
  2. Read at least 15 books by the end of the year.
  3. Take an athletic class through my school or go to the gym at least once a week. This is something that's much more attainable to me that trying to go every day, or having a specific weight goal, or something like that.
  4. Take a Pole Dancing class (I've always wanted to, but I've always had excuses for why I shouldn't)
  5. Work on trading out my fridge with more vegan options, and figure out which products and brands are available to me in my small college town
  6. Take a full day off from social media every month, most likely by turning off my phone for the day
  7. Visit Canada at some point this year (hopefully over Spring Break)
  8. Save $1 every week the whole year (This doesn't seem like much, but with money as tight as it is for me I decided on $1 because it's something I know for sure I can manage - plus it'll add up over time)
  9. Stop my bad habit of turning on the TV or a YouTube video before working on homework or other important tasks

Sunday, December 24, 2017

3 Years Old!

Today is the 3 year anniversary of this Blog! I wasn't sure what to post, but I really just want to mark the day! It's so crazy to me that this my time has gone by since I first started writing this blog, it really doesn't feel like this year of blogging has already past. I'm really excited about what the new year will bring, and I'm happy to have so many great people who love this blog along with me to share it with! I'll see you on Tuesday for a regularly scheduled post... Haha

Thursday, December 21, 2017

Stability


For a while now, I've been thinking a lot about Stability.

Stability.

The quality, state, or degree of being stable.

The strength to stand or endure.

Continuance without change.

Steadfastness.

Permanence.


A majority of what I've talked about on this blog has revolved around my life and my experiences as a college student. One of the main things about being in college and in this weird transition period of life is the complete and total lack of stability that I have felt over the course of these last three years. A lot of that has been because of my own choice of schools, the location related to my hometown/family, and the cost. However, there have been quite a few other things within this third year that have contributed to my feelings of instability.

Back in June of this past year, I posted a really angry/frustrated post about things that were taking place in my life (You can read that post HERE) and then a few weeks later I followed it up with another post kind of updating on everything that happened since (You can read that post HERE). This post will tie in with all of that, so it'd be good to be all up to date with everything. Both of those previous posts really highlights the instability of everything, but I still want to talk about it in a more concentrated way here.


This past semester was harder than I planned, and didn't go nearly as well as I thought that it would. I spent a lot of time stewing over the semester and the things that took place, and how my grades would look once they were posted at the end of finals week. The fear and anxiety around being placed back on academic probation, or being expelled because of being placed on academic probation for the second time, really weighed on me heavily. Would I be forced to move again, out of the one place that was beginning to feel like home? Was I going to have to explain to everyone that I failed at the one positive thing I was doing in life? Did I really fail? How do I explain this to people?

My parents, who put their house up for sale in about June, just barely found a buyer this week. They were beginning to lose hope, and beginning to feel the frustration I was already having. An hour or two of notice before we had to be out of the house for a showing, which caused complete chaos as we ran around trying to hide everything that made it appear as if we were still living in the house. For me, this meant that the closet in what used to be my room, where my things are already boxed up from when I was there in July, is full of other "personal items" from around the house, and a showing means putting everything back into my suitcase and back into my car to drive to who know's where for however long strangers are walking around the house. It was especially bad during Thanksgiving Break in November, because it was my Birthday week and I was basically living out of my car.

It's weird to me that I'm not as sad as everyone else about the "loss" of my parents house, even though I lived there for a majority of my life. I think that I had already parted with it back in July, and I haven't felt like I've lived there or been at home there since I packed up all of my things. It's weird to think that I don't have a permanent room anywhere anymore though. I don't have a place that's really mine to return to.

Pepe, my handsome, sweet Pepe, is getting older and older, and his age has really begun to show. I wake up every day worried that he's gone for good, and Hamilton is without a brother for the first time. He has become slower and less like himself, less excited about life, and he'll occasionally close himself off in the igloo that they typically both share so that he can be alone. There have also been several attempts by him to start fights with Hamilton, which has never been an issue in the two-ish years that they've been together. It seems as if Hamilton moves too quickly or is too energetic, and Pepe lashes out at him. It kills me to even think about having to separate them. I've also noticed a lump on his underside, and although it's been checked and doesn't seem to be causing him any pain it's really concerning to me that it's there.

When it comes to my relationships, it seems as though everything has gone, or is going, awry. My current roommate, who I have been friends with since our first year at college, will graduate after next Fall semester. I will not be graduating then, I will be at this school for what looks like forever. So I have no idea what I'll do after she's gone. It's two semester away, but it's already something that I think about and worry about almost constantly. My friends that I had in high school are either married, having babies, or are finishing up with college and planning amazing adventures, all without any contact to their friends from the past. I've tried to keep in touch with some of them, but with the different time zones and busy schedules that everyone has, it hasn't really worked out. These people who I love, and want to have in my life for comfort and advice and friendship, all seem to be moving onwards and upwards in life, leaving me (and most likely some others who also feel this way) behind. It feels as though the last few years that I'm in school leading up to me completing my degree I will be alone, or with randomly assigned roommates, trying to trudge my way through life.

My current relationship, with the coworker that asked me out, is really up in the air. He basically only sends mixed signals to me, and really isn't clear on anything that he wants. At one point he even said that he wasn't sure where he wanted to relationship to end up. I really want things to work out, so I push kind of hard, but I don't know whether or not that's something that makes him send more mixed signals or if it's actually helping the situation. Most of the time I want to just ask him straight out if he could just be direct, but I don't think he can be direct because he doesn't know what he wants this relationship to be.

My job is running along like it always has, but having people yell at me every day is beginning to wear me down. I've had people yell at me because they had too many unpaid parking tickets, and I've been yelled at by people who parked in a fire zone but thought they didn't deserve a ticket, and I've had people yell at me because of the cost of the permits to be able to park on campus. After long days, and the thought of homework that needs to be done, and sleep that isn't going to be taken, on top of everything else that's been going on in my life, I sometimes want to go cry in the bathroom at work after being yelled at. I've tried to find other jobs, but I haven't been able to find one that's doing something better than what I'm doing now, and that pays just as well. Preferably I would like to be earning more, because money is always tight, but until I finish school minimum wage is about the best I can do. Most minimum wage jobs include being yelled at by strangers on a regular basis.

I don't know where I'll still be living, or who I'll be living with, or who my friends will be. I don't know where my parents will be living, or where all of my packed things will be moved to. I don't know how my guinea pigs are going to fare, if I'm going to have to separate them, or how much longer Pepe will last. I don't know how much longer my relationship will last. I don't know how much longer I'll be able to have people yell at me before I crack and have to quit. I don't know how I'd be able to afford school and food and gas without a job. I don't know if I'd be able to find another job, or a better job, a job where I don't get yelled at by strangers.

Stability.

The quality, state, or degree of being stable.

The strength to stand or endure.

Continuance without change.

Steadfastness.

Permanence.

Stability.

Something that I'm currently lacking.

Tuesday, December 19, 2017

Last Minute Post? I'll See If I Think Of Things To Say As I Go Along? Maybe It'll Turn Out Pretty Good? *Awkward Smiley Face*





Yup. You read that title.

I planned on having a post already planned and ready to go for today that would go up at my normal time on 2:30 Pacific Time, but I totally blew it.

I stumbled through my finals week, making it out barely alive, and drove home with my guinea pigs in the back seat trying to get home ahead of a big snow storm that was brewing.

After my finals, I assumed that I would get some breathing room and time to relax being at home without classes or work to worry about, which I was completely wrong about.... I got home, and my family quickly left for a family outing, and the same thing the next day. On Monday, my mom was back home and she had an outing planned for the day with just my younger brother and I, which involved a lot of running around to shops and being in crowded places trying to pick and buy things. Today I hoped I would finally have my relaxing day to myself, but it was filled with more outings and plans.

I just haven't been able to slow down and breathe! I feel almost like I haven't been able to since September when I had my gall bladder out!

For the most part, I'm actually looking forward to the holiday season being over, because then everything will slow down, and I'll have some real time to decompress before figuring out all of my school stuff again.

My final grades haven't even been posted yet, and family members keep asking me what classes I'm doing next semester and whether or not I've looked up and bought the textbooks yet or not!

It's times like these where I wish that I had more time. Not just time to relax, but more time in general. I feel like everything is flying by so quickly that I can't keep up with it all. I want to do everything, but twenty four hours isn't enough time for everything! Especially if I want to get some sleep!

I have some plans for what I want the future to be, and for how I want things to go, and I'm hoping that those things will happen in the new year. I've also got some blog posts planned, which I'll hopefully get up on time (unlike this post!), and I've got some resolutions and reflections that I want to do.

Right now, it's not even 8:30pm and I'm already ready for bed, exhausted from the day, and looking forward to trying to sleep in (which I haven't been able to do yet, my body still thinks I need to be up at 6am every day for classes and/or work). Hopefully things will look up from here!

I'll see you on Thursday!

Thursday, December 14, 2017

A Book Review - Wilde Like Me by Louise Pentland


Right this moment, I have just put down this book after having sat and properly read it for several hours, and I have no idea how to put into words how this book has made me feel. There's this feeling sitting in my heart right now of love, and coziness, and familiarity, and joy. As soon as I finished reading Louise's letter to the reader, I knew I had to sit and write out my review of this book while I still had all of these things swirling around in my mind and heart.

I had preordered this book, and excited awaited its arrival, and then I got swept up with life and with school so I didn't get a chance to sit and read it like I had planned. Now that I have read it, I'm kicking myself a little bit that I didn't carve out the time to read it sooner!

Originally I planned to read several books over the course of my winter break from school and post a long thing showcasing all of them together in the new year, but a book like this one deserves to have its own post, so I changed my plans.

I've been thinking back to one of Louise's weekly vlogs where she had a very honest, sit down conversation about how worried she was about people not liking this book. She was writing this beautiful, heart wrenchingly honest book that has hit me very deeply at this point in my life, so I can very honestly say that she had no reason to be worried about people not liking it back when she was recording that video, and she has no reason to be worried about it now that the book has been released and is being read all over the world.


To be completely honest, I was unsure as to whether or not I would like this book because I tend to stick to young adult fiction. When I started reading it, and Robin's character developed and I began to feel like I was reading about the goings on in the life of a dear friend, I was really happy to have branched out from young adult fiction. There were so many days when I was up late reading this book because I needed to know what Robin was going to do next and how she was going to handle the various predicaments she got into. There were also a lot of days where I wished I could hop into the book for a little while to try to help/support her, because the further I got into the book the more I felt like Robin was a friend whose life I really cared about.

At one point in the book (I'll do my best to keep this spoiler free, but you're kind of at your own risk for this part), Robin has a big falling out with a male suitor, and she told herself that his opinions didn't matter, but that she wondered if his opinions really did matter (that's as close to spoiler free as I can get).

I, completely and totally, stopped reading at that point and had an honest conversation with myself about that. Sat by myself, in my pjs, in my college apartment that honestly could be cleaner, I had a real and profound moment because of something that I read in this book. That doesn't really happen with young adult fiction.

In case you couldn't tell, I absolutely and completely LOVE this book. I love Robin, and Lyla, and Lacey, and Piper, and all of the other wonderful characters that feel like close friends to me now. I can't wait to see what Robin gets into next, so hopefully it won't be too long before the second book is released!

If you want to make new friends, have profound moments in the middle of the night, and learn about yourself through the characters, then I very highly recommend this book to you. You won't be disappointed.

I'll see you on Tuesday.

Tuesday, December 12, 2017

Thursday, December 7, 2017

Current Favorite Beauty and Skincare Products

It's been a while since I've posted my beauty and skincare favorites, and it seemed like now would be a good time since I recently updated a few of my makeup items!


The Urban Decay Naked Ultimate Basics pallet is the newest addition to my makeup routine. When I visited my local Ulta Beauty, they had the pallet on sale for an extremely low price, and I knew I couldn't pass up on the opportunity. I absolutely love all of the colors, they're all extremely pigmented, and the brush that comes in the pallet is really good quality. Not to mention that the mirror included in it is big enough to put a whole face of makeup in! 

Urban Decay is Vegan and Cruelty Free, however their parent company does test on animals. 


I've been loving the NYX HD Studio Photogenic Finishing Powder to set my under eyes, and my foundation if I'm going for a full face that day. It's the first loose powder that I've used, and to be honest there's a night and day difference between a loose powder and a pressed powder! I don't think I'll go back to using a pressed powder in the future. I'm still using the same L'Oreal Paris True Match Lumi highlighter in the shade Rose, and the Covergirl Cheers blush in the shade 110 that I've had in previous makeup posts. One of my newer interests is with contouring, so of course I had to go with most people's tried and true Hoola Bronzer from Benefit. So far, my first impressions of it are really positive (I got the mini to test the waters with it a bit). 

NYX is Cruelty Free, but their parent company does test on animals, and they are not Vegan. 
Covergirl and L'Oreal are not Cruelty Free and Vegan brands. 
Benefit is also not Cruelty Free or Vegan.


For a really long time I've been swearing by the Milani Make It Last Setting Spray. No other setting spray or Primer that I've tried had every really come close to the stay power of this setting spray. it's for sure a staple in my makeup routine that I don't see changing anytime soon. I've also been using the Rimmel Lasting Finish 25 Hour Coverage foundation, which I was originally skeptical of, but I've grown to love it! I will typically use it to conceal my under eye bags, but when I want to have a full face of makeup, this is the only foundation that I reach for. When it comes to mascara, the best one I've been able to find is the L'Oreal Voluminous Lash Paradise mascara in the shade Blackest Black. Ever since I've been using this mascara, I've gotten tons of complements from people about how great my eyelashes look, and it's all because of this mascara.

Milani is a Cruelty Free brand, but is not Vegan.
Rimmel and L'Oreal are not Cruelty Free and Vegan brands.


One of my few Black Friday purchases was this perfume! It's a really beautiful and light Vanilla scent, that I wear every day. It lasts all day, and I've gotten nothing but complements on it. As far as perfumes go, it's extremely good quality for how low the cost is. 

I was unable to find if this perfume was Cruelty Free and Vegan or not.


In order to take off all of my makeup at the end of the day, and give my skin a nice cleansing, I always go for the Garnier SkinActive Micellar Cleansing Water. There's nothing better to make sure that all of my makeup is completely removed. It also makes my skin feel really clean, which prepares it perfectly for the Timewise solution and my Skyn undereye cream.

Garnier is not a Cruelty Free and Vegan brand.


Skyn Iceland's Icelandic Relief Eye Cream with Glacial Flower Extract is the one and only eye cream that I've used, but it's something that I really love having my my skincare routine. It's a thick almost putty-like cream that stays extremely cool and applies really smoothly. A little bit goes a long way with this product, so don't be fooled by its seemingly small size.  I haven't noticed a significant amount of changes in my undereyes, aside from them feeling a lot better because of how cooling the cream is. I'm sure that I'll notice more significant changes over time while using this product.

Skyn Iceland is Cruelty Free and a 100% Vegan brand.


I've talked about this products before, and I continue to use and love it. The Mary Kay Timewise solution is my go-to product for great skin. I put it on before going to bed, and literally overnight there are a lot of differences in my skin. Smaller pores, it'll help get rid of any pesky pimples I may have, my skin is a lot softer, and it helps keep my skin feeling really soft.

Mary Kay is not a Cruelty Free or Vegan.


I hope you enjoyed this post! What beauty and skincare products have you been loving? 
I'll see you on Tuesday!




I got all of my information about the brands from the site Cruelty Free Kitty, which you can check out HERE if you want to learn more about which brands are or aren't Cruelty Free.

Tuesday, December 5, 2017

November 2017 Overview


As you already noticed, I was pretty absent from this blog in the month of November, I only had 4 posts up in the whole month! In all honesty I've been really inconsistent with my posts since school started back up for me in August... Which I don't think needs much of an explanation, I think school is a big enough reason to be inconsistent with postings.

In November, I had a lot of exams before heading home for a week for the Thanksgiving Holiday and my Birthday. I spent a lot of time working on schoolwork, and even though I probably had the time over the break to write up some posts, I really just wanted a break from everything so that I could have a lot of time to myself. I'm sorry to say, but my blog went on the back burner and wasn't my first priority this month.

Thanksgiving was amazing, and it really put my synthetic gall bladder prescription to the test to see how much food I could eat without exploding. For my first Thanksgiving without my gall bladder, it couldn't have gone better! My family had a large dinner with most of my mom's extended family and some of our neighbors, and we watched a lot of movies (albeit a few Christmas ones that I wasn't particularly excited about). It was really great to get to see my family! At one point, one of my Aunt's took my families photos for our Christmas card this year, and she took some extra ones of just me that turned out really good!

If you're curious about my Gall Bladder removal, you can check out my post about that HERE.

On my Birthday, I did go Black Friday shopping with my mom. We went to several stores, mostly pet stores, and I mostly got pet supplies... My mom got me several things for Christmas that I don't know about (wink, wink), and we visited my Grandma to watch some cheesy Hallmark Christmas Movies (My Grandma LOVES their Christmas movies, she watches them almost all year long).

If you're curious as to what I got for my birthday, you can check out my post HERE.

I know what you're all wondering, where were my Guinea Pigs through all of this... I actually had a friend, who is a Pre-Veterinary Student, watch them for the week that I was back home for the break. They were really well taken care of, but were seemingly happy to see me when I got back! I absolutely love my boys, so I did miss them while I was away, but it didn't seem like it would be a good idea to have them travel with me because it would be a long drive back and forth for just a week long break.

I don't have a whole lot else to say about the month of November, because I was primarily at work and school, or at home working on stuff for work and school the whole month. It wasn't particularly exciting... Although I have decided to move forward with adding on a Forestry Minor to my two Majors. Hopefully I won't kick myself for it later... Hahaha

I'll see you on Thursday!





What About Blogmas?
In November, I threw around whether or not I wanted to participate in Blogmas by posting every day in the month of December, but I decided that, because I was already struggling to post consistently, I wouldn't be able to manage posting every day particularly well. I'm still going to be posting in December, hopefully on my usual Tuesdays and Thursdays, and I already have a few posts planned that I'm pretty excited about.
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