Tuesday, February 27, 2018

My Current Playlist - February 2018

I've had quite a bit going on, so I wanted to do a pretty easy post, and my go to is normally giving you guys an update on the songs that I've been listening to on repeat and loving!

This isn't the longest of lists becuase I didn't list each song from the Greatest Showman soundtrack, which is what I've been listenting to the most. If you haven't seen the Greatesy Showman or at least listened to the music, I highly recommend it! It's something that I've been obsessed with ever since I first saw it in theaters.

IDGAF by Dua Lipa
Him & I by G-Easy ft Halsey
So Far Away by Martic Garrix
You Could Be by R3HAB
Hold Me by R3HAB
Thunder/Young Dumb & Broke by Imagine Dragons and Khalid
Let You Down by NF
The Middle by Zedd
The Last of the Real Ones by Fall Out Boy
Champion - Remix by Fall Out Boy (RM)
Raincoat by Timeflies
Sober by Cheat Codes
Fade by Timeflies
Gravity by Timeflies
Castle by Halsey
Sorry Not Sorry by Demi Lovato
Supernova by Ansel Elgort
FRIENDS by Marshmello ft Anna-Marie

Do you also like any of these songs? Are there any songs that you've been seriously loving? I'm always up for new music recommendations! I'll see you on Thursday!

Tuesday, February 20, 2018

Mental Health and Self Care in College

As a junior in college, I have time and time again been reminded of the importance of looking after your mental health. College is one of the most stressful, and most hard things that you can do, so it's important to check in with yourself and make sure that you're getting the added support where you need it. There have been many times, this past year especially, where I've been incredibly thankful for the counselars that I have available and for the time that I'm able to take out of my days every once in a while to have some self care.

A lot of the time, I feel like I'm looking through one of those peepholes on a front door at the things that I want, and even though they're right there, all I can do is look at them through the peep hole. Sometimes the things that I see are different, but they always seem to be things that I feel are unattainable at the time (be that good grades, a relationship, stability, etc).

The only thing about looking through a peephole is that you only see a small part of the entire picture. I've found that, when it comes to my own mental health, this is the most detrimental thing for me. The times when I have finally attained those things that I was looking at through a peephole, I'm finally seeing the bigger picture and it really isn't as grand as it looked when all I was doing was looking at a small portion of it. Things like getting into the college of my dreams only to be faced with medical trouble and classes that are harder than expected, and starting in on a relationship that looked good to begin with but once it's begun isn't what I wanted or thought it would be.

One of the biggest things that I've been reminding myself of all the time recently is that although it is good to want those things, and it's good to imagine what they'd be like by looking through a peephole, there is so much more to them and to life than what can be seen in that tiny image.

Every time I check in with my mental health and I work out what I need to do to get it where I want it, I'll often times seek out some time for myself to do some self care things that work for me.

Personally, I take a lot of comfort in taking the time to pamper myself. I'll do my makeup really well even though I don't plan on going out or seeing anyone, and I'll put on that perfume that's only for "special occasions", and I'll do my nails and my hair. Most of the time, after I've done all of that, I'll sit in my sweatpants watch some movies or take the time to read a book I've been wanting to read for a while.

If I don't have the ability to do that, I'll try to ground myself in the present time, in whatever is going on in that day. If I'm sitting in a class, I'll focus soely on that class and not on anything else that's swirling around in my brain. This is especially helpful for me on rough days becuase I tend to dwell on the past or potential future happenings that end up only making me upset or more stressed. Being able to focus on one thing at a time, and staying completely in what's currently going on helps me to maintain the emotional stability that I lose when I think about too many things at once.

I know I've said this before on this blog, but I find the best stress reliever to be cleaning. This is especially good now that I have guinea pigs with me becuase they need a lot of cleaning and upkeep to allow me to get some good stress relief in. My guinea pigs are also a great form of self care for me as well, because I love them and being able to spend a lot of time with them.

What I do for self care is ever changing, but it always leads to the same amount of relief on my mental health that I need every once in a while to keep myself going.

Do you have any good self care things that you do? Have you ever looked at your ideal things through a peephole and then they turned out differently when you got to them?

I'll see you on Thursday

Tuesday, February 13, 2018

Thoughts on Valentine's Day

I have a lot of feelings right now, so I'm kind of mixed in my opinion about Valentine's Day this year. I, as you may remember, got broken up with last month, so I had originally thought that I would have a significant other to spend Valentine's Day with this year, however I do not... So it's more of a "Single's Awareness Day" for me... But I wanted to take the time to kind of lay out everything that I'm thinking about when it comes to Valentine's Day, because I may not be the only one who thinks/feels this way!

(I want to kind of say starting out that while I'm typing this up I have a really bad glare on my computer regardless of where I sit right now, so please forgive any mistakes that are typing related because I can't read what I'm writing very well)

Alrighty, so I've been trying to work out how I want to spend my Valentine's Day tomorrow, and at the moment I think that I'm going to call both my mom and my grandma to let them know that I love them and that they're doing great with life, and then I'll probably get really comfortable (basically meaning that I'll go full potato and stay on my couch in comfy clothes) and watch as many rom-coms as I can while eating total junk and not feeling bad about it!

That sounds kind of sad, mostly because it's meant to be a day spent being loved and loving on someone else, and candy, and things like that, but I think that an afternoon of alone time after spending the morning in classes is a good way to go.

I think one of the big things people miss out on is showing some love to their family members and friends on Valentine's Day because it's seen as a holiday meant for couples. One of the best things that I received for V Day is a super cute little card that my baby cousins made for me. It's covered in stickers and their super cute handwriting, and it's something that I think I'll keep forever!

So if you're feeling extra aware of your single status, take the day for some self love, or to remind the important people in your life how much they mean to you - Especially if it involved cards and stickers and super cute small children! Haha

To be honest, a pretty horrible part of me wants to fill my ex boyfriend's jacket that I still have with glitter and leave it in his locker at work tomorrow, because then I would no longer have this thing that reminds me of him that I no longer want, and then he'll be stuck finding glitter pretty much everywhere for along time. I kind of feel like her deserves it, but it was said to me that he might be down about being single on V Day... To which I responded that it's his own fault he's single on V Day... Haha Let me know what you think, and/or if you have any opinions about returning gear to an ex significant other.

What are your feelings about Valentine's Day? Let me know how you're planning on spending the day this year! I'll see you on Thursday

Thursday, February 8, 2018

An Earring Haul

I'm really excited about this post, however I'm not really sure how to format it! I'm going to just work it out as I go along!

As you know from previous posts, I've been getting a lot more ear piercings this past year, which I've been absolutely loving. One of the only downsides that I've found from having so many ear piercings is that I have a hard time matching all of them in a way that I like with the earrings that I already had beforehand. 

Back in my last post, I talked about a trip that my friend and I took to the nearest big city for a day of hanging out and not really worrying about life! Well while we were there, I stopped into the Icing shop where they were having a sale on earrings and I treated myself to some new pairs that I thought would look really nice with the other piercings that I have. 

I only took photos of the earrings themselves and then how they look on my right ear. I figured including both ears would be a bit too much, but having one gives a much better idea of how they actually look. For the most part I went with really simple earrings that I can wear all the time and not worry about how they look. 

Let me know what you think about them! What are your favorite earrings?

Tuesday, February 6, 2018

My Tragus Piercing

Keeping up with the trend of my past piercings, here's a beautiful photo from off of my phone that I took soon after getting my Tragus Pierced!!

I had been planning on getting my tragus pierced for a long time, but I've never been able to get the nerve up to actually do it. I always would think that it couldn't be any more painful than my inverted bar, but a little voice in my head kept telling me that it would be worse!  At the end of the day, it took my friend saying that she would get hers pierced if I got mine, and even though we didn't pick a date for it, we decided to go together.

After being broken up with, and being super down, this friend was the one that was really there for me through it. She would check up on me all the time to make sure I was doing okay! So when I was in this really low time, she was like "Let's go now! Today!", and we did! So on the 24th of January we went in to see our regular piercer, and I was really pumped to get out and being doing something for myself that I'd been thinking about for a long time!

She went first to get hers, and she was really surprised about how easy it was. I was reassured by this, but for some reason when it was my turn I really psyched myself up for it and before he even put the needle in I was bracing myself and pulling away a little bit, which is not what you want to do! When it actually came down to the piercing, it really wasn't that bad. I think I would put it on the same level as the two cartilage piercings that I have on my right ear, but not as easy as my daith piercing was.

I completely love it, it looks exactly how I dreamed it would!

I did get my daith and my tragus pierced only a few weeks apart, so my piercer said we'd have to wait until we were both totally healed up before he'd do any more work for us. So at the moment, I have two relatively new piercings on both of my ears, but only one of them actually feels like a new piercing.

Be sure to let me know what you think, and if you have any new piercings planned! I'll see you on Thursday.

My Cartilage Piercings
My Inverted Industrial Bar
My Daith Piercing

Friday, February 2, 2018

January 2018 Overview

I know, I know, I totally missed posting yesterday! It's the beginning of the second month of the year and one of my resolutions is basically already out of the window... Haha Well I'm going to keep trying to uphold that resolution the rest of the year. This is one little hiccup, but I'm not giving up yet!

Let's get started on this monthly overview!

January was a really rough month for me, mostly because I was broken up with over text by the person that I was dating. I was lucky enough to have some really good friends checking up on my and making sure that I'm not totally wallowing all the time. One of my close friends stayed up to talk to me for most of the night one night, and other day we took a day trip to the nearest big city for a day off and to spend some time really getting to talk! It was so great!

This past month I also started taking an athletic class through my school's rec center, and I've been completely loving it! Leading up to the start of the class, I got really anxious about it because I didn't know the people or the instructor or really what level of difficulty the class would be. Luckily, I really like the instructor, and all of the people who are also in the class are really nice. To be completely honest, the class is harder than I expected but I think that it's exactly what I need. It's twice a week, so I go and I work out all of my stress and worries until my arms and legs feel like jello and all I can think about is how much water I want to drink!

The highlights of the month were getting my Daith and my Tragus pierced. I absolutely love them, and I'm really happy that I decided to get them!

I started off the year with my family, and then returned to school shortly after to start a new semester of 17 credits and working part time. I've been going to a lot more movies, which has been a great way for me to escape from my life for at least an hour every once in a while.

For the most part, I've been spending my time at school, at work, doing homework, or going to the movies/hanging out with friends. I've been doing my best not to think about my breakup, but there have been a lot of times when I've felt really lonely and havne't been sure what to do. Although the days are mostly gray, and it gets dark way too early, I've somehow been staying positive through all of this. I've got great friends supporting me, some amazing classes that I'm happy to be taking, a school that I love, and a place to work! At this point, I'm starting February feeling like I'm at my worst, but also feeling like I can only go up from here!

How was your January?
I'll see you on Tuesday!
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